Raining in June?

I love this weather. If Redding was like this every year, no doubt, I wouldn't mind living here for the rest of my life. I love the Rain.
Life is hectic. But, school is out, so thats a plus. I have work for over the summer so I might be able to get ahead for next year, which would definitely lighten my load. Working for my dad part time. I love doing what I do. And the fact that I don't have to deal with certain people is a huge plus. Church is great. Though I'm having a dificult time adjusting to being the oldest inn YW. Its been like that for a year but I always had to my leaders to lean on. But the presidency has changed and they are now encouraging us, as Young Women, to lead the YW program. To think of it, its a fantastic idea, but I'm not enjoying it too much strictly because I've always been the youngest, and haven't really had someone to look up too. Although, I have older siblings, there's no way I would willingly walk in the same path any of them have chosen. I've been told in discussions that I should make my own path and be a person that people would look up too, not the other way around. I agree for the most part, and I think I've done very well at that, but sometimes, I just wish I had someone to really admire and look up too. Someone I know, not just a church figure that I've never known.
Recently, I've discovered some things that are difficult to deal with. And its a drastic moment in my life that I know that I'm not dealing with correctly but I don't want to be the first one to break the silence. I'm having such a hard time being at home, with the problem, that I'm losing faith. I'm surrounded with this burden constantly and I can't tell anyone. Its hard, and I am finding that its too much sometimes.
Everything else is great though.
Stake presidency changed, and I couldn't ask for a greater man to be Stake President. (But getting a meeting with him is hard).
Stake Young Womens Presidency changed as well and I couldn't be happier. Its a fantastic group of people.
Change is happening as always, but there's a lot more thats going to be happening and I'm not sure how I'm gonna take it. But I'll deal with it when the time is right.

"Because of Christ there is hope smiling brightly before you, and you need not worry too much about sickness, death, poverty, or other afflictions. The Lord will take care of you. Your responsibility is to keep the commandments, feast upon the words of Christ, and stay in the path to your heavenly home."
--Julie B. Beck